A Season for Everything

It's been three and half years since my last post and I have stopped thinking that things will get back to "normal." Most of the time actually things are normal. It's those days that are not that remind me that cancer is forever despite having days of "remission." Sometimes those are days like birthdays and holidays that suddenly days of funk for me when I don't want to see anyone and just want to lie around in my pajamas. The worst loss I think though has been Jessica's friends and family. I do appreciate the honesty of people when they outright give the reasons why they can't be friends anymore. Everyone, not just me, went through/ are going through the stages of grief for Jessica, but we also are going through the stages of grief of the loss of the life we will never have without her.