Saturday, July 11, 2009

Sorry for the long delay in posting

I played soccer late tonight at 11 and after getting home after midnight and soaking in the tub, I thought I'd post a quick one. I'd make it longer, but I've got to get up early for Jadyn's soccer pictures and indoor game in the morning. Bryn is playing on the same summer team, but she's sick so she won't be going. I have been so proud of my girls this week. They went to soccer camp all week together and although they fought some, they also showed how much they care about each other and they brought a smile to my face so many times this week.

I'm realizing now even with the time we had to prepare for Jessica's death, it's impossible to be completely prepared. Some things just have to be weathered. For example, in many ways Katelyn's best friend was Jessica. There was and is no other person who knew her so well. I think that void may be filled when she gets married, but for now it's a loss that must be endured. Another thing is while I made sure the girls would have continued reminders of who Jess was in the form of birthday cards for them each year, I didn't think to have her do it for me. My birthday is coming up and it would have been nice to have gotten a card from her.

Life of course though is unexpected every day and the best thing I can do is do the best I can with what I know. I will continue to raise up the girls in a way that she would be proud of and when life throws curve balls at least I'll go down swinging.

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

Jake:

I've been checking the blog on a daily basis. I'm glad you took time for a quick update. Sounds like everyone is keeping busy! If you need anything or there is anything we can do, please let us know. Great to have a little update.

Becky

Al Rearick said...

After we drove by y'all on Friday, after I'd made the comment about "what are your kids being forced to do," Nathan looked at me afterwards and said, "You're not funny." Did any of the girls say that to you? :-)

I'm glad you posted this. Your blog is so life-affirming. I know you're busy & all, and you don't get to post as often; though you are missed, it's still nice to know you're keeping this alive.

Al

Anonymous said...

It is good to hear from you. We check in on your blog often. We will continue to pray for you and the girls. I still hear often of Jessica's wonderful influence on the lives of others.

The Casas

Anonymous said...

You continue to amaze me. Jess was Katelyn's best friend, and here I thought she was mine. I was wrong. Thank you for reminding me how very close the two of them were and are. And then there's you. You whom she once told me loved her unconditionally. Thank you, Jake for making her feel so totally loved, for better and for worse, in good times and in bad, in sickness and in health. What a tremendous role model you are for your girls. God knew what he was doing when he gave us the gift of you in all our lives. I love you to Jess and back. Totally and forever.
Mom