Saturday, June 4, 2005

Getting From Point A to Point C

I think Jess and I are both struggling with being at point "B." Point "A" are the first few days after chemo when we know she is going to be sick; point "C" is when she is feeling better. The problem is there is over a week in between. We prepare for point "A" and we look forward to point "C" but point "B" just might be the hardest because all we can do is wait it out. For Jess it is hard being able to go out but then having to take time out to rest (or sleep). For me it is hard giving up control and letting her decide when it would be a good time to do that (rest). We definitely made progress toward point "C" today. We went and worked out at the YMCA today and went to a carnival at Katelyn's school put on by the church that meets there on Sunday. One of the neatest things about the carnival was that we had several people we had never met before come up and ask if my wife was "Jessica Kaylor." This church has a heart for asking God to heal Jess and they "knew" her because they had been praying for her. Actually Jess meets people all the time that have already been praying for her which is pretty cool becayse praying for Jess's healing and us coping with her treatments is the most important thing people can do for us.

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

Hi Jacob & Jessica...

Sorry it's been awhile since I've posted anything for you; but we have definitely NOT forgotten to pray for both of you.

We understand about the "getting from points A to C, and being stuck on B", but it's good that you can keep it in perspective.

Jacob, we really missed you in BSF, and hope that Jess's situation is improved so you can come back when we start up again.

Meanwhile, Love & God bless,
Jay Graham

Anonymous said...

Jessica and Jacob,
You don't know me but a friend of mine told me about your story. I read your blogger every day and pray for you. You are walking through this with such courage. I also have three children 6,4,and two and understand the demands of motherhood aside from chemo. I am so so inspired by the way you seemingly are juggeling both with such thankfulness. You truly inspire me each day and my prayer is for complete healing for you. God will not lead you where grace cannot keep you...A Martin song...they are a musical blessing. Keep fighting!

Anonymous said...

Jacob and Jessica,

As a spouse of someone going through chemo, your latest posting was like reading my own words and thoughts.

Each day during "point B" is so unpredictable. When Bryan shows signs of feeling up to speed during that time it's such a relief, but things can take a drastic turn in a matter of hours.

There are extreme highs and extreme lows. You're right-it's the in-between stage that is the hardest. For us, we feel like we are still grieving and longing for the life we had before cancer. When you see a glimpse of that life returning, you struggle and fight to keep it! When you hit those lows, that's when you lean on God and your loved ones to carry you through.

Yes, we are forever changed by this, but I mean that in a GOOD way. God gives us a new found appreciation for life and each other. I think some of our happiest moments together have been after Bryan's diagnosis!

Both of you will come out of this journey stronger, closer, and CURED! Hang in there...

God Bless,

Bryan and Karen Panella