A Hard Day

Today was a hard day. If you read my earlier post from earlier today, you know that Jess has been having nightmares. One cool thing-- when Jessa awoke from a nightmare while Kathy her nurse was here, Kathy immediately said we need to pray for that. I like a nurse who will look at the spiritual as well as the physical. As much as medicine has been a blessing there are just some things it can't fix. Jessa's color has been better and she eaten some (although she did throw up the little bit she had for dinner). Jess has also been out of it for a lot of the day, but she was definitely better today with understanding what was going on and who people were.

The girls still give her hugs and kisses no matter what. Jess has been insisting that she be able to do stuff today no matter how hard it is for her. She insisted on drinking from a cup without a straw which was very difficult as it is hard for her to raise her arms up (tumor in the right elbow, tumors in her broken left collar bone). Bryn handed her a card that she managed to open with difficulty. Bryn simply said, "Mommy takes longer than she used to." She said something then that made me cry. She has been barely whispering things lately so I had to lean in close. First she said, "I love you" and then she said "I love you more than I will tomorrow."

Of course with all of this suffering comes blessing. Jesus once said, "Blessed are those who mourn for they shall be comforted." For me the biggest blessing has been the number of people that love Jessica so much, a lot of them without ever having met her.

To continue with Jessa and my story together, let me tell you of our date to Sundance Square. Jess and I went to go see a movie in downtown Fort Worth in a fun area called Sundance Square. First we saw a movie, but then we didn't want the date to end so we decided to do something else. Now, earlier I had parked in the now closed down Tandy Center. I noticed that the parking booth hours ended at 10, so I figured I would get out of paying for parking since we would now be leaving past that. We decided to go to see a comedy troup called Four Day Weekend which was then performing after a play called Forever Plaid. They're much bigger now, but they were even funnier then. We laughed a lot. Jess has a sweet laugh. I have a funny one. Sometimes at my school, I will hear whole groups of kids imitating it which I think is pretty funny because how cool is a laugh that makes other people laugh. After we saw Four Day Weekend we headed back to the Tandy Center, but found an unpleasant surprise. Not only was the parking booth closed, so was the parking lot. There was one of those big wooden arms that don't come up unless you pay and of course we couldn't pay now since the booth was closed. The logical thing at that point would have been to call a cab, but that thought would only come later. Right then Jess and I thought of an idea that working together just might work. We found out that I could raise the bar up a little before it stopped. I was driving an Eclipse which not only was a really cool car, but it was also low to the ground. Working as a team I raised the bar and Jess drove the car as far to the right as possible and whew-- made it! We were jumping up and down because we had did it. Jess climbed into the passenger seat, I climbed into the driver's seat, drove the car around the corner and... there was a huge chain going across. OK we can do this Jess said. We unscrewed my antenna I held up the chain Jess barely squeaked by my foot and success! The only thing missing was Mission Impossible music. Tomorrow I will tell you what God told me about Jess.