My Anniversary Letter to Jessica

Jessica Lynn Kaylor,

Tomorrow we would have been married ten years. I have to admit I am jealous that you have seen Jesus already, but I am very happy for you. Your last year was filled with pain and it brings me great joy to know you can run, skip, and do cartwheels. Do they have water in heaven? If they do I know you are swimming -- you have always loved water so much. We are doing fine just like I promised you we would be when I spoke to you on the day you died before the rest of our family arrived. There have been days when that promise has been stretched and we have been broken and feel helpless, yet, we have grown closer as a family and we are healing from losing you. Without you here, Katelyn talks to me more often about important stuff. She has a boyfriend now (don't worry I'm sticking to the group date rule) It makes me sad that we can't talk to each other about her growing up. I love her as if she were my own flesh and blood. God gave me a present when she came into my life when I met you. Jadyn still gets mad sometimes but she also lets herself be sad. We write notes back and forth about our feelings. She has become even closer to Bryn. Bryn talks about missing you a lot. She misses snuggling with you, you reading books to her, and your special goodnight kisses. God has kept the promises He made to me of love and support. I've said it to you before, but isn't it cool how He uses people to accomplish His purposes? I wanted to visit your grave tomorrow by myself, but I want to wait until your grave marker is done. Are you surprised that I thought I had already taken care of ordering it, but I didn't? Your friends and family miss you. I know some of them still call your cell phone to hear your voice when they get your voice mail. You may no longer be my wife, but you will always be my friend. I love you.

See you in 50 years,
Jake